Today's picture of the day is 'Words'. So I have kept this in my thoughts all day long. I have a quote on my wall that says 'Because when you stop and look around, this life is pretty amazing'. ya ya ya..yada yada yada. I do feel that way, but I see that all the time and I was waiting for some pow! to hit me today.
I took the three youngest to Costco today. They were well behaved. Nolan gave his cute overly cheesy grin to every old person around who all went gaga over him. We had a good time, not in a rush at all. It was really nice. On the way home, Nolan was sleeping and the girls were sitting in the third row talking and coloring in their new colorbooks. And darn it! I felt like my sister...getting mushy over something so dumb. My eyes teared up at the big girl conversations that they were having. No more Olivia asking Megan questions to that require yes/no answers. Really indepth conversations...you know, about coloring and what kind of pet they want.
And then I picked kids up from school, I got to the school really early because my option was to take a sleeping baby out of his carseat (he's in a big boy carseat now) just to have to put him back in in 40 minutes and have him not get a decent nap or get to the school early, let him nap, put a LeapFrog movie on for the girls and read my book. I went with the latter. Well, during this waiting time, Kennedy walked right in front of our car on her way to recess and didn't notice us. I got to watch her play with her friends and remember back to when I was in fourth grade and remember what that was like.
Hayden didn't come home right after school today. She was supposed to have her first day of tutoring an elementary school student. The teacher that was supposed to provide the curriculum wasn't their today so she only met the student and his parents. Which required several texts between us coordinating me coming to get her. But just that she's old enough and responsible enough to tutor an elementary student makes me sad and proud all at the same time.
After we got home, Nolan was dying to be outside. The girls didn't want him on the trampoline with them because he's too little, so I took him on a walk. Like a walk walk. No stroller. He just wanted the freedom to walk/run. As I came to the corner I saw a 'yield' sign. I immediately thought about my 'assignment' today. But last year my word was 'pause', so that I would remember to slow down and enjoy my kids. And I did...and still am.
I think that I was just looking too hard. Seeing everything I feel is important, but not finding what word or words I wanted. Then tonight, after I put Megan to bed for the umteenth time cause she really wants to 'nuggle', I sat back down with my book. I'm reading My Sisters Keeper' by Jodi Piccoult. Within a few pages I read
They outgrow us so much faster than we outgrow them.
That's it. I look at my nearly 15 year old daughter who is starting college next year. While she has to do the first two years at home, I will be sending her to college in two 1/2 years. I'm not ready. How do you live everyday with a child and then all of the sudden all you can do is talk to them on the phone or text?
How do you have a baby that needs you for everything and all of the sudden is so independent, cries to play outside, runs when he barely learned to walk, climbs, has an overly goofy, purposeful grin?
And then there's the three that are in between. Somedays I hardly can contain myself that these kids are outgrowing me. And then there's somedays that I can't wait till it's bedtime. So those are my words for the day..... They outgrow us so much faster than we outgrow them.

{My picture is not from today, but it's rare to actually get a picture of all of my kids...so this is it!}